????????????

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch him sleeping
He's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and
Lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
'If i never wake up in the morning, would he ever doubt
the away i feel about him in my heart'?????

If tomorrow never comes
will he know how much I loved him????
did I try in every way to show
him every day
that he's my only love?
and if my time on earth were through
and he must face the world
without me!!!!
Is the LOVE I gave him in the past
gonna be enough to last?????


I made a promise to myself
to say each day how much
he means to me
and avoid that circumstance
where there's no second chance to
tel him how I feel............

1 after another

Hari ni aku MC lagi...eye infection pulak...period aku lak dah delay..ya allah kau uji lagi hamba mu ini....besoknya aku demam teruk...
confirm aku pregnant 5 weeks...24hb aku period...sakitnya Ya Allah!!!!!!!!!!
byknya darah...aku rasa cam nak pitam...refer klinik kasi ubat next week dtg balik....

aku tabah hadapi dugaan mu Ya Allah....

Dugaan 2

tak sampai satu minggu jadi lagi...aku x faham kenapa...nak kena sorok..nak kena tipu..motif!!!! aku dah 2 hari 2 mlm tak makan, tak tido...dah pening kepala aku...khamis 12 nov..pagi nak pegi keje..aku pengsan..low blood pressure..glucose in blood also low...ya allah...dugaan lagi...
2 hari mc, abg em dtg amik hantar ke klinik dr.azizah, pastu refer kat GH...
masa tengah tunggu giliran Pam call 'la nape tak pegi ke Gleneagles, kan insurance cover kat sana'..aodih mana la aku x boleh fikir dah time tu....nasib baik..sekejap je tunggu..masuk la air gula satu btl...
tak lama lepas tu..en. A sampai....ermm. temankan aku sampai abis..air tu...pastu baru..aku call hubby aku dtg amik....
bekas jarum kat tangan ada tinggal kesan lebam....

Dugaan :(

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